Ever since I can remember, I’ve never wanted to have kids. The idea of pregnancy just makes me feel uncomfortable. I don’t want to be constrained in the idea that women are supposed to have kids. I’m okay with other people being pregnant but not me.
I just know that I won’t be able to handle having kids of my own. Having kids is a big responsibility, and it is a responsibility I know I can’t handle. I’m already bad with kids as it is. I can’t even take care of my own niece; what more if it is my child? I just know what I’m capable of and being a mother is not one of them. I can’t be the ideal mother I imagine. There is also the fact that I’m not yet completely sure what would my future entail.
I would rather focus more on my career and find a stable job. I’m just starting my life; I just graduated. I want to enjoy my life more. I’m happy with just being a good leader like my mother who is a tech geek. Well, I am very proud of her. She even taught me last weekend about access point test which I never knew and I decdied I wanted to be like her in the future.